Day 10

Mood: Maybe I’m a lion

I can hear the seconds pass by, there is no clock but I definitely hear one. Where is it coming from exactly? I cover my ears, they’re cold but I still hear the sounds. It scares me, I check for my heart beat I can’t find it, I take off my shirt but I still can’t feel i, I claw at my chest, but I can’t seem to find it. I look for my pulse, I now hear the pulsing of blood, it’s quick so it can’t be my heart, two and a half beats per second. That’s ninety beats for a minute, is that normal, is that possible? I’ve never checked my pulse so I wouldn’t know. I start counting, it’s my only escape, it’s only me in this white room, and a bed. There’s a door. I stand up on my feet, it’s painful to move. I go to the door, with all my might I twist the nob but it’s not budging. I slam on the door but no one will let me out, I scream but no one hears me. I then hear voices outside. I stop to listen but the sound of the invisible clock bothers me.

“This boy will suffer from post traumatic stress disorder his entire life.” An older voice said, probably to someone else. I recognize him, he’s my doctor. He’s always nice to me and he looks like Jesus. When I saw an image of him in a church I said why there was a picture of my doctor and they responded that it was not my doctor but the son of god. I then asked if my doctor was the son of god too but they said it was impossible. I got angry and then the next time I saw my doctor I told him and he just laughed. Why would he laugh?

“But so quickly, we’ve been examining him all night but all he’s been doing is talking in his sleep about time and seeing it, the kid has gone delusional.” Someone else said, he was also a man but I’ve never heard his voice anywhere. I still hear the invisible clock and I tell it to be quiet but it doesn’t listen to me, why do I have to hear it instead?”

“Well during that time he was...” My doctor paused, why? I want to know what happened to me? “His nervous system went into hyperdrive, delusions could have been a side effect.” My doctor coughed into his hand, why is he coughing, he’s a doctor, he helps sick people. “But do you believe he saw the space time continuum happen right before his eyes?” He chuckled. “No, impossible, but something did click in his mind, this vision could have been a coping mechanism, he felt insecure and powerless, this was maybe a vision to help him deal what was happening to him.” What happened? I don’t understand.

“I don’t believe it, but how do you explain what happened after to him? Ten year olds should not be able to overpower a teenager and cause those kind of blows.” The other man said. A ten year old, that’s how old I am. I am five million two hundred fifty six thousand minutes old. Right? The clock keeps ticking I tell it to be quiet again but it still goes. They started talking five minutes and twenty seven seconds ago, that’s three hundred and twenty seven seconds in total. How do I know that? I huddle by the door.

“His hyper activation of his nervous system caused him to be able to act outside his normal body’s limits. He easily could’ve overtaken her.”

“And the roaring sound he made?”

“Bestial instinct?” What’s a bestial instinct? I don’t understand anything, and why is the clock still ticking, it’s making me angry.

“He will never be the same, every time anyone will approach him he will lash out at them. And look at him now, he thinks he’s some kind of hero.”

“He probably is, not many kids can defend themselves properly this day and age.”

“Are you promoting this kind of grandstanding behavior doctor.”

“Oh heavens no, I haven’t decided about him.” Decide what?

“So you’re just going to go do nothing about him, and hope to god he gets out of this phase?” The other man said, I heard the jingling of keys, maybe they’ll let me go.” I move back and the white door opens I see my doctor but I try to run past him. He catches me and lifts me up. I want to get free but he won’t let me, I grab his chest and feel his heartbeat, it’s slow. One every one and a quarter seconds. How is it so slow? I’ve never noticed it before until now.

“Why hello there child, and how are you this morning?” He asks with a smile, he looks more like Jesus now.

“Can I go home now?” I ask him and he chuckles. “The clock bothers me.” My doctor stops chuckling and looks around the room.

“I don’t see a clock in here. I have a watch, but it’s digital, wanna see it light up?” He puts me down and shows me his watch. The invisible clock and his watch are moving at the same speeds. He presses a button and the screen is now a light blue. I stagger backwards and fall down. I feel unimaginable pain and I scream. I roll on the ground in agony, crying. “Stay with me.” He grabs me lightly and raises me and lays me on my side on the bed in the room. He strokes my head and I suddenly feel better. “Good, good. Now how do you feel?”

“The clock is annoying me, I tell it to stop but it won’t.” My doctor looks around for the clock but he still doesn’t see it, but neither do I. He takes out a small flashlight and looks in my ears.

“Well it’s not in your head, so where could it be?” He asks me and I shake my head. “We have some tests to run, will you let my associate examine you for a bit?” His friend came out from behind the door, he was younger than my doctor and he had blonde hair and blue eyes, he was tall and he had a needle in his hand. And then I couldn’t control myself, I jumped from the bed and toppled him over and roared in his face and tried attacking him but my doctor pulled me back. I kicked and flailed, for some reason I was angry at this man but for what I don’t know. I just wanted to hurt him so bad. I wanted to make him suffer. The doctor put something in my mouth and made me swallow. I lost all feeling and fell down.

“What is he that made him so powerful? He’s a monster.” The man I toppled over walked over to me who was again laying on the bed.

“Maybe I’m a lion...” I said and then I fell asleep, hoping to never wake up again. But I did and the rest was just history.